Okay, it's time to share the good news with you people now i guess.

Mum is opening her stall next Monday(1st June 2009) at the coffeeshop near my house. She will be selling noodles and congee together with my Yeemah(aunts). Yes i know this is very sudden, i just got to know it last week only. And i didn't take her seriously until i saw the whole load of cooking equipments she bought. Haha. I don't know why she suddenly got this idea, but i hope her business will be good and she will be happy setting up her own business. Okay, her opening hours would be 6am-3pm, if i'm not wrong. And yes, i will be there on weekends, especially on Sundays. I can't imagine what i'm gonna do there, seriously. I can't cook! But i love to wear nice aprons and walk around. Goshh.. So people, if you happen to read this(i'm sure you will, because this will always be on the top of my first entry! haha), please come down to support my Mum's stall okay. Do drop me a message if you are coming too, so i can welcome you! Haha. Spread the news, spread the love. I'm quite excited actually. I hope to see you all at the stall soon yeah.. Thank you sweet tums! =D

I'm actually suppose to the my stupidandfuckingwastetime Fedex project now. But my MSword is fucking lagggggg~ Open one file, open so long!! Anyway my holidays are coming to an end soon, so fast right?! And it wasnt really what i expected, oh wells... I didn't take jobs like how i did for all my previous holidays. I only took one shoot and thats all. My allowance came in later than expected which made my holidays much suckier(?).  FYI, my allowance is not given by my parents. Cut the story short, its just some payment that myKing will receive every month, so he asked that person to transfer it directly to me and thats my allowance!

I'm quite excited that my birthday is coming soon, like in less than 1 month's time. WTFFFFFF~ I really dont know how it will be this year. I guess it'll never be the same as the past few years, because i stepped into another phrase of life this year. Quite a big change i can say. Meeting new friends, people come and go. Hopefully things will turn better and of course having a stable income. Sucks to be broke, sucks to not have new clothes, sucks to wear same clothes over and over again, sucks when you crave for something and yet cant eat it because after that you might have to eat grass for weeks, sucks to be bothered about money issue over and over again, lastly, BEING BROKE JUST SUCKS! I reckon next month i will be fucking broke, i repeat, fucking broke! And if next month my allowance is late again, I WILL JUST DIE~ And that is how i came out with my entry title, because i dare not think any further about next month.. Okay, just pray that everything will be better for me. PLEASE AND TYVM. And dont forget my birthday!!!!!!!!!!

Oh! I almost forgot.. Attended a birthday party at Cafe Del Mar on Sunday together with SW and it was awesome. Except my cramps and the scorching sun, made me so gao wei.. Yes, i conquered my cramps again.. I swear this was the worst. I vomitted 3times and it was all gastric juice. I wanted to die so badly and i cried.. I almost wanted to grab a knife and stab it into my abdomen. Seriously!! SW says i have PMDD (go google it). Okay back to the party topic, i so wanted to go into the pool for a dip because the weather was sucha killer. ThankGod Geraldine was accompanying me, so we were yakking non stop through out the whole party while the guys when to play in the water. Xav and SW love to let us hang out together. LOL. Anyway, i enjoyed myself at the party.. On the way back, I had a good chat with SW about some friendship issue and i was glad that i ranted everything out. I felt so much better and he totally understood the whole situation. =)) I shall talk about that sometime later. Finally MSword stopped being a bitch already, i have to work on that stupid project now. Please give me a better week ahead! And i want good food soon!! Shall end this post with a photo of my sweetheart! Goodnight.

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Just like my title for this entry, im experiencing the lowest point of time in my life now. I'M FUCKING BROKE~ I don't want to take money from my parents because they kept asking me where did i spend my allowance, how come i got no money, where is my pay and all. How to explain? First, last month's pay can only be collected upon SELF-COLLECTION because we have to sign something. I've been dragging for 2weeks already, but the places they meet for self collection is so far and my school ends so late! Almost everyone collected their  cheques already. FUCK~ Secondly, even if now she were to text me to meet her somewhere to collect the cheque, i might not have enough cash to meet her. I still got one more week to go before i get my next allowance. Thirdly, i should have prepare myself for this day to come. I had never been out of cash before, or so fucking broke before. Why must i go through this? I really dont understand why my allowance is always not enough. I'd never shopped or bought anything new or whateverfuck the whole fucking month and yet i am so fucking broke!

I'm so hungry now. I hope myKing will buy dinner back later. I can eat a fucking bull. I hate this kind of life. I'm staying home tonight to finish my project. SW is gonna be in camp till next week. It's been a long time i last spent weekends alone. What a life.. Fuck this life. Seriously. The past few months were like crap, so many unhappiness and unwanted issues happening. I hope my holidays will be better. And i hope to go for shopping and buy some new clothes, i was so pissed yesterday that i cant find a nice dress to wear. I hate my waredrobe to the max. I need more money..

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my King is gonna buy dinner back! <3
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I will survive this shit. Dont worry.
I.WILL.SURVIVE!
Fuck poverty.